I get that some people have trash childhoods and that's why they are the way they are, but at some point you gotta take accountability for your actions and decide you want better for yourself.
To be successful, productive, and happy, you should be mindful of your emotions as much as your rational thoughts. Imagine you're a boat and your emotions are the sea. By knowing its present state, you can decide how you need to sail. With that, you can continue your journey, no matter if the sea is calm or stormy.